It's ENOUGH!

Nothing will refocus your life quite like the birth of your last child.  At age 36. Eight years after you thought you had given birth for the last time.  Few know what took place, on a personal level, during those eight years--or even months leading up to finding out we were pregnant---but, that child--that sweet little pork chop who put his Mama through the longest nine months imaginable.....that child, has become a compass, pointing me to the things that matter MOST again. And, just when I THOUGHT I understood God's grace and all that it meant, life got "kicked up a notch" and I have begun a new journey in Graceland.

A trillion questions have gone through my mind over the course of the past year.  Hows, whys, what's gonna happen when ______ and on and on....but I seem to always hear this voice--this constant voice that never changes--even when the world around me is whirling 100 mph or the sands are shifting--this voice keeps whispering "My Grace Is Enough Jess, My Grace.Is.ENOUGH."

• Enough to cover all my inadequacies?  Check.
• Enough to forgive me for not making it into my "Bigs" room to say prayers and goodnights for the 10th night in a row because I was nursing Baby? Oh yeah--I've got you covered Daughter.
• Enough to forgive me for all the piles of piles that are swallowing us up, daily, as I never have enough hours to get it all under control?  Yes, even in the piles and messes, My Grace Is ENOUGH! 
• Did you HEAR me screaming at The Bigs today?  I know the neighbors did. Yes, I did and I've got you covered.....and I'm covering your neighbors too!
• What about those feelings of disgust I have towards _____?  Or, my anger and frustration about ______?  Will your Grace cover me still?

crickets. Oh no, not really.....that's just the noise of the Enemy trying to distract me.....His voice still whispers......My.Grace.Is.ENOUGH........

Okay, okay, OKAY......I think I get it. Sorta.

Sit back and enjoy this ride with me, sweet friend and sister.  {And brother, if that applies to you.} Walk with me into my every day living as I co-parent Red, Dewey and Baby.  I want to share what God is teaching me daily, through my sons and husband and the brutiful mess that surrounds me.....and I hope HoPe, HOPE that as I continue refocusing and moving forward, God can use my life to offer encouragement and support to you, wherever you are in this journey of life!

Psalm 34:8
Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!

From the Inside Out

A thousand times I've failed

Still your mercy remains

And should I stumble again

Still I'm caught in your grace

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades

Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame

My heart and my soul, I give You control

Consume me from the inside out Lord

Let justice and praise, become my embrace

To love You from the inside out

Your will above all else, my purpose remains

The art of losing myself in bringing you praise

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades

Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame

My heart, my soul, Lord I give you control

Consume me from the inside out Lord

Let justice and praise become my embrace

To love You from the inside out